I get it now!!!

I now know really how skinny people feel!! I am by no means skinny, but I know how they have a TOTALLY different relationship with food.

I have been very busy at work and in my general life. Having fun again, doing things that I wouldn't have even a short time ago. Laughing more, not being a "fun sucker" as my son once call me.... I turn up the music extra loud, dance, sing karaoke, drink a beer at lunch, flirt with the pilot of the plane I flew to Boston last week!! I am being generous to local charities, waitresses, and valet parking dudes. I even re-friended my son on FB even though his posts are moronic and embarrassing!!

Back to the skinny people and their relationship with food. They use food to fuel their bodies. Apart from the occasional splurge, food is just that, fuel or sometimes something to poke at while you are laughing with your best buds! I barely think about it. I eat good food to keep me running and don't even think about it much of the time at all! I have gotten stuck once or twice eating too fast, but really I am not even hungry enough to overstuff.

I was actually called tiny and someone picked me up jokingly to move me out of the way and he didn't end up in the hospital and I didn't apologize for my girth.

I also have had an epiphany! My stretchmarks and C-section scars are my proof that I carried my precious children into this world to enjoy for the rest of my life. My lap band scars are proof that I loved myself enough to give myself a chance to... My breast reduction scars are proof that a 45 year old can have cool, perky boobs without silicon! These were big issues for me in the past. I am over that!!!

I love reading all your posts, you all keep me motivated and laughing.

xx
Ames