Stuck....

I am a lucky one I guess. I am still relatively a "newbie" so I am sure when I get a really good restriction someday I will know what stuck is....

I have a couple of problem foods. Broccolli and tater tots. Well since I really shouldn't be eating a whole mess of tater tots we could probably negate that one. I love broccolli. Raw, cooked, blah, blah blah. I have taken to overcooking and mashing and that works. But I really started thinking about what I haven't been doing lately and that is: being mindful of what is going in my mouth.

I have had a couple of incidents lately where I felt stressed, unhappy or sad and immediately went to the cupboard. It is always there for me. Looking at me from across the room saying, "come check me out, I have something in here I am sure that will fill up something you are missing...". I usually (not always) can resist now, but not because I am full or not hungry, but because I have gotten rid of ALL of my bigger clothes. I would have to resort to pj's. Also, I have been working out like a crazy person and even lugging 1-2 extra pounds on a run hurts now. I just think that I have some things to work on. I can eat just about anything and as much and as fast as I like.... All bad huh?

I have a fill on the 15th of December. I have done great in terms of really working in the exercise and that has paid out in BIG loss, but I really worry if I backed off the exercise for any reason (busy or injured) that I would be in trouble. I am afraid he is going to think I am at a good restriction because of the loss I have had. I really need to feel full.

On the Holiday Challenge front, I have successfully gained a pound and stayed there. So I am not sad, but rather happy that I have that at least to keep me honest. I am amazed at some of the successes posting! That is really what this is all about, just a cheer squad for a bunch of amazing people!!! I love you all!